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June 12 Someday I'll show you a world that shines in the lightIf you use your head, you won't get fat even if you eat sweets. *Danger* This post has large amounts of boring in it, Reader be-ware *Danger* Happy 111th Birth...... Oh. 18? That's not a whole lot, especially when compared to 111... Oh well. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. It is better to die in hope than live in despair. As you can obviously see, I'm just pasting random quotes. I like quotes, they give me something intelligent to say, without me saying it. ...Shut up. The cycle of nature and your stupid plan don't mean a thing. Aeris is gone. Aeris will no longer talk, no longer laugh, cry... or get angry... What about us... what are WE supposed to do? What about my pain? My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning! I planned on laying out a big post, for the 18th obviously, but now I'm not so sure. I guess I'll try. Gavin Fitzgerald is 18 today. Whether it really matters is somewhat irrelevant, I still mentioned it, therefore, some perceptive significance is attached to it. Don't you think? But it's just a date right? Or is more of a milestone? This is a general problem with birthdays. Is it just an excuse for materialism? Or an actual significant date? Make no mistake about, I'm materialistic scum really. On that note, I bought a DS for my birthday! Yeeeaaaaah! It's actually quite fun, I just love the portability of it. It's refreshing, instead of being locked to my PC or TV for gaming, kind of like my mp3 player. Why do people depend on each other? In the end you're on your own. I'm fine by myself now. I have all the skills I need to survive. I'm not a child anymore... That's a lie. I don't know anything. I'm confused. I don't want to depend on anyone. How can I do that? Someone tell me... Someone? So I'll end up depending on others after all... But lets look back on these 18 years, give a quick glance at 6574.5 days (approximately  ) of life.Baby ages: I remember very little, if anything. Apparently I used to head butt my sister when I was a baby. I have no idea why. Just grab her and wallop! Infant: I remember that cup of boiling tea that I spilled down my leg when I was 3. I had scars from that until I was 7. I remember my dad holding me... Pre-School: A really nice teacher... she was so nice... Primary-School: Ummm, the highlights? Diarmuid. Blue-Guy. Bullied. Bullying. Falling over, getting a round bandage on my forehead. Pokémon. Trading with Jack. Doing bunny ears on the rich guy in a communion photo. The yearly library, that was so cool. Reading Darren Shan. And more. Outside School around Primary Years: Bullied more. Anger swells, resentment. Things happen. Secondary-School: New friends, new real friends. The chair throwing of 1st year mornings. Getting 100% in my first maths test on Sets {yes, I'm that vain, congrats}. Mrs Crowley, Irish = quick Daniel, let us bit down on these pills. Bullied again. Hatred swells. Home-Ec, with Anthony, we had so much fun, writing endless notes. Falling for a girl. It's sad but I remember that time Anthony played that joke, it got out of hand and I snapped. I went OTT with anger. Also first year was the start of the mind set into suicidal depression. I wrote most of those silly notes in 1st year... 2nd Year arrives. I remember.... counsilling {not sure if that was 1st year}, was a waste of time, I was too scared to really open up, just got out of these a.s.a.p. Science class with Liam and Michael. Liam=twit, Michael=not twit. I remember the prefabs. 2.6 rocked! Me, Dave, Daniel, and boy I loved it. Business and Spanish were fun. It's when I moved out of town. To Ballymacelligot, or as the guys brilliantly called it "The Arsehole of No-Where". 3rd Year... *mind blanks* huh..... I think me and Anthony went to Playstation Experience that year... That was fun enough, my one and hopefully only experience of booth babes {YMCA}. There was Alex. I remember the exams, which were fun enough, the careless freedom and summer weather. 4th Year on is recent enough, I doubt I haven't covered anything I feel comfortable covering about the past 2 years. And I here I sit. Slump actually. I have horrible posture. I'm hideous frankly. I really am. That's why I've stopped going swimming. I want to, but I hate seeing my myself, and hate others seeing me even more. That's going to present some serious intimacy issues eventually, but on that subject, it's not like I've been near a girl for oh.... Since August 23rd 2005? Yup, nigh on 2 years. Speaking on which, I need to decide where I stand on alcohol. I'm not sure. I've drank like once, about 2 years, but that was when I was staying at my nans alone and was depressed about her. Even then, it was an insignificant amount. I liked the taste of it {some whiskey and some Vodka}, but I haven't drank since. I've been tempted sure, but for some reason I haven't. I don't know, I need an adult  .But I'm 18 now, apparently I am an adult. Women, the final frontier. Pfft, right. Simply an excuse to not feel so pathetic. I think that most things can be drawn back to that. Gaming - All your base are belong to us. Perfection and Imperfection, they're just great for me. Love them or hate them, they're so important to me. To close as I'm too lazy to make any proper points anymore, if this annoyed you, why did you read it? The vary nature of a blog is largely considered selfish, but that's not an excuse. I'll be here tomorrow, to take your thoughts, for better or for worse. My friends, I love thee. No post is complete without photos:      April 29 Hey-oThought I might just fill in this month, my xanga is really where... everyone is..
someone got hurt, no point making a post now April 02 Xanga and TwitterI blog on my Xanga page, not really here. It's because all my friends use Xanga, not this, don't think any of my friends have a Windows Live Space... I also got a twitter last week, both Major Nelson and my apple-freak friend {  } Enda use it.I wonder how the MCR concert was.....
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